maybe it's just me;

didnt mean that, yet i fell safe
it's different
it's weird
definitely felt something
swallowing that feeling yet it keeps dwelling

eyes kept closing
kept thinking
it's sweet
will you?


goodnight
romeo

Pictures of the day;
romeo & romeo

taking step by step;
it's alright

running towards an endless road could take forever
but the journey could be interesting
to you; thank you for the weekend
adorable yet unique
step by step, it's gonna be alright
paused, take a deep breath
smile and the laughters
thank you



goodnight rome

untitled;
another week


not a vibration,
hardly a conversation,
i always thought i could always fit somehow somewhere around you,
the more i feel that im no longer needed around you,
who can i turn to this time,
i thought i could wait for it,
but it hardly came,
when i look back, words keep playing in my head,
seriously i dont understand it at all,
many tried, hardly succeed,
im i the only one whos feeling this,
the pain,
that left a scar within


another step,
rome

untitled;
words of wisdom

a friend told me that
'life's like a railway track, you keep moving forward'
making one self's useful
we talk a lot that night
sharing stuffs which somehow lead to a conclusion
'life is about making mistake, isnt it'
i wish to forget, but it left a mark
maybe to others, they dont understand
she said, 'dont feel regret, you do it sincerely'
she smiled
for a person who's going through the opposite of me
is hard to face the music
fragile it may seems, we know what to expect
sorting out reasons which somehow solve certain issues
is not easy, huh
yet satisfying others and expect nothing in return
i feel is unfair
it feels like we are made to please people needs and wants when they need it
and when they dont, well let it say by itself
left on one side, we find our kind of happiness just to make us feel secured
complicated
define whats complicated
'its how complicated you want it to be'

anyway, its 9 august today
even im not patriotic, happy holidays to all of you

goodnight rome

untitled;
maybe

its nice to hear from you again
if only,
when i look at you, i miss the moments we had
even the words you said, i wish to believe it
the point trying not to make any stupid conversation, i kept quiet
words that natural comes out from me, paused
its been awhile now we had a good night talking below the stars
and i dont know will it ever happen again
i didnt message you because i dont want to interrupt the life you going through
i wish i can be there for you whenever you need me
hope the job you get is worth while
all the best


i miss you still

sincerely,
rome

untitled;
just a week


just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
thats alright because i like the way it hurts.

another weekend,
im tired
too tired for all this bullshit
yet i have to tolerate, cb.
damn shagged right now
i wish im this shagged everyday till my body gives up

fuck it,
goodnight romie boy.

Untitled;
a day to remember



nothing much has change
feeling miserable yet pleasing people in the other hand
i cant understand myself
words froze as if i cant talk properly
i froze in front of her
yet wanting to see her
sigh*
help me
im so lost inside
it feels lonely
i appreciate my friends who are there for me
still it doesn't change me
seriously shattered
i don't know who am i anymore
its complicated and it is easier to say than done
feeling detached day by day
i need a source of strength
giving up is easy
but to hold it all up together, i wish
i pick up gaming again making myself appearing as an online stranger
if i would just stay online, maybe i wont get hurt anymore
just lock myself up, denying everything
i spent less time for my weekends now
i questioned my doubts, hoping i can find a leak for an answer

bike giving me some problems, hope something can be done soon
witness an accident on the way back, feel sorry for him
as blood flow from his helmet, ambulance arrives within minutes
risky riding, i don't want to end up like that
if i disappear someday, will i be remembered?
its raining heavily now
the cold breeze
the strong wind
it feel nice to be cuddled

guess thats all i have to say
i'll come back someday hoping to backtrack whatever i wrote to remind myself
anyway, firefighter course huh next week
goodnight rome