Untitled;
a day to remember



nothing much has change
feeling miserable yet pleasing people in the other hand
i cant understand myself
words froze as if i cant talk properly
i froze in front of her
yet wanting to see her
sigh*
help me
im so lost inside
it feels lonely
i appreciate my friends who are there for me
still it doesn't change me
seriously shattered
i don't know who am i anymore
its complicated and it is easier to say than done
feeling detached day by day
i need a source of strength
giving up is easy
but to hold it all up together, i wish
i pick up gaming again making myself appearing as an online stranger
if i would just stay online, maybe i wont get hurt anymore
just lock myself up, denying everything
i spent less time for my weekends now
i questioned my doubts, hoping i can find a leak for an answer

bike giving me some problems, hope something can be done soon
witness an accident on the way back, feel sorry for him
as blood flow from his helmet, ambulance arrives within minutes
risky riding, i don't want to end up like that
if i disappear someday, will i be remembered?
its raining heavily now
the cold breeze
the strong wind
it feel nice to be cuddled

guess thats all i have to say
i'll come back someday hoping to backtrack whatever i wrote to remind myself
anyway, firefighter course huh next week
goodnight rome